It’s been to long

Wow today took the WordPress time machine and started reading all my old posts. I can’t believe I’ve been on hormones for over two years now! I remember thinking I would never get to this point and omg does it feel amazing! I feel like a different human. So here’s what’s been going on in my life lately

I miss living in the city!

So I moved out of the city and back to my home town… so there’s some good and some bad about that first I’ll tell you the good things.

My friends have been so supportive I have amazing people in my life who really have just blown my mind. They use my pronouns (most of the time) and even when they don’t they usually just apologize and move on, which is great. I can afford to live hear, it was so expensive living in the city it was hard to survive.

And now the bad: the average person in my home town. Not so accepting. One of the key examples of this is my Trump loving Mom. Now I gad plans to come out to my mom knowing she would probably disown I had a timeline and everything but, then she was diagnosed with cancer. She had to have a hysterectomy and is going threw radiation now… so I haven’t done it. Womp womp

My kids are growing like crazy.

Here’s the part where everyone hates me for showing off my kids but it’s my keyboard m***er f***er so deal with it. My daughter will be seven in March and my son will be 2 in January time is freaking flying by I wish they could stay little for just a bit longer. My kids are home schooled and we like many homeschooling parents worry about how we’re doing but, this year has been amazing my daughter is so good at math it’s crazy. We thought she was having trouble reading and writing but we’ve found out that she’s ahead of most of her peers in public school so I guess we’re kicking ass. Our pediatrician says our son is way ahead of other two year olds speech wise so that’s awesome. All in all I think I’m killing it at this whole parenting thing.

I feel pretty.

This my sound stupid but it’s a pretty big deal to me. My whole life I’ve been told that I was handsome and that might sound like a compliment but when you’re trans it’s a prison being attractive in the wrong gender doesn’t feel good at all. When I was younger I used to think that nobody would like me if I transitioned I thought I could never look like the trans women I idolized and I don’t, but does any women look like the girls on the magazines? No everyone is different and all beautiful in our own way. I guess I’m just saying I like the way I look for the first time in my life. It’s been a crazy couple of years but I’m so happy I’ve come this far.

My new Etsy store.

Hi guys I know I’ve been gone for a minute but I have some exiting news! I just opened an Etsy store. Come check out my stuff! I’m selling some of my art along with some clothing I’ve made.

Excited to share the latest addition to my #etsy shop: Streatch fitted muscle shirt/tank top http://etsy.me/2AEnwwQ

My video timeline.

I’ve been offline for a while now (I’ve been super busy). So I’ll give y’all a little update of what’s been going on in my life first off I had a baby 🙂  

 He’s 3 months old as of yesterday (probably why I’ve been offline)I don’t have much to update but I’ve been taking pictures every week or two for the last six months for a video timeline. So here is the video so far.

I tried to take many of the pictures without makeup as to get a relistic representation of facial changes without contouring. Let me know what you think if my changes so far.

1919 Hemp Hill

If you’ve into hardcore punk music fronted by crazy transwomen this my band pkaying in Fort Worth Texas.

 Marla Strange

How I met my wife.

Warning: pre transition photo of me.

  My wife and her friend Megan on our wedding day
So, there is this awesome show called Fuzzy Fest in Houston that benefits animals in need. The first time my band played it is when I met my wife. I was not out yet, and looking very androgynous. Jason (my drummer and BFF) and I had just pulled up to the venue, and as we walked down the side walk towards the door a beat up blue car covered in stickers pulled into the parking space next to us. Now, I’ve never believed in love at first sight, but the girl that got out of that car was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I was obsessed at first sight, if not in love. I would later find out she thought Jason and I were a gay couple…I did have a cup cake belt buckle on. She asked us if she could park there, because she thought we lived in the neighborhood (probably because we were cleaner than most of the crust punks that attended the show). We told her that we weren’t sure, because we were going to the show and had never been in the area before. She stood in the front the whole time my band played, and I couldn’t stop staring! After we played, she told me that she loved my band and bought a cd. I told her to like us on facebook, and I would send her a friend request.

  My wife the day we met.
We started to flirt a bit, and made plans to hang out at my next show in Houston. She ended up having to work late so this didn’t pan out 😦
I did get her phone number, though, and we started texting each other. During this time, we flirted more and more, and I really started to like her. This was crazy, I was generally being a slut in my home town and had plenty girls who I should have been more interested in just based on proximity. But she was so cool, and so freaking hot! We made plans to meet up before a show I was playing in Galveston. 
This couldn’t be considered an official date, because I was there with Jason, but it was a start. We all went to eat at a very touristy seafood place that overlooked the water. I think it was called Fisherman’s Warf, or something like that. We joked back and forth awkwardly due to nerves, and then went to the show. We talked the whole time the other bands played, and drank a few beers to calm the nerves, and she just kept getting cooler and cooler. You see, I’m very sarcastic and dry so I’m used to people either not getting me or just thinking I’m an asshole, but she had a snarky reply to everything I said, which made me more attracted to her. After my band played, we talked in the alley behind the bar for hours. We talked about everything from my first marriage, to her two year old daughter, to growing up in religious homes. If this wasn’t enough, we drove to the beach, because I haven’t seen the ocean since I was 4 or 5. We stood in the water letting the waves crash into us for hours. I wanted to kiss her so bad my body ached.   
As I said before, I was a bit of a slut, so kissing a girl should have been no problem, but it was like I was a freshman in high school again. I was so nervous. We went to the apartment of a friend of Jason and I in Houston and talked until the sun came up. We hugged goodbye and stared in each other’s eyes for a while, like those weird moments on the X-files were Skully and Mulder look like they are going to kiss, and just like on said show, we went our separate ways. Unfulfilled. 
I was smitten. I stopped dating, I couldn’t be the slut I had been before. It felt wrong. We started texting everyday. She even planned to drive to my home town to see me under the pretense that she was coming to watch my band. When she found out she was going to have to miss my show for work, she drove up anyway. This time I didn’t miss the opportunity to kiss her. We spent most of the night making out on my couch.
After that, we started spending almost every other weekend together. We had fallen in love, and we started something I never thought I would ever do…a long distance relationship. Long distance sucks. There is a silver lining though, every time we were together we fucked like bunnies. It was hard to think about the future, how could this last? We lived over three hours away from each other. How could this ever end? I was more honest with this woman than I had ever been with anyone. I didn’t tell her I was trans, although I did tell her I wanted to look like Andrej Pejic. This was before she became Andreja.
Eventually, we moved in together. I told her I was gender fluid(how I identified at the time). She didn’t care. She doesn’t believe in hard genders and she’s bi. After about a year of living together, we were married and moved to Austin. She found out she was pregnant(we are having a little boy):):):). I started seeing a gender therapist, and decided to come out as a full blown trans woman. She has been the most supportive person in the world. I can’t believe I found her. I’m so lucky to have her in my life.

  This is us before My transition.

First time public women’s restroom pee.

So, I’ve only peed in woman’s restroom a couple times before this but always at a trans friendly bar at a trans get together. But yesterday I went to see Star Wars and used the one at the movies in the mall. The best part of this story is I don’t have much to talk about. I went into the stall and peed no one was rude to me  no one laughed. Maybe I passed, or maybe people are just better than I give them credit for.

P.s. I’m disgusting and took a selfie in the potty.

  

The keyboard activist.

I read a post today that said a lot of very hateful things about transgendered women . The thing that really upset me about the post was it was not written by some bigoted white cis male but by a part of the queer community. The post was addressing trans women that shame lesbians for not having sex with them. I agree no one should be shamed for refusing sex, but the the rest of it was her shaming and discrediting us.below is the comment I left on her page. I doubt it will change the way she thinks about us, but I couldn’t help but say something.
I agree with one point you make. It is wrong to shame anyone for not wanting to have sex with you. I should be able to say no to someone because I don’t like the pants they have on, if I want to. The rest Of this post is full of misinformation nobody chooses to be trans, you are born with it just like homosexuality I won’t go into that but I will provide a link to information that proves this, http://www.nytimes.com/1995/11/02/us/study-links-brain-to-transsexuality.html read this article please. I did not choose to be trans. I’m not confused. My life would be much easier if I was a straight cis male. Transgendered people are not a bunch of perverts waiting to prey on you. And like I said anyone who pressures you to have sex is a scumbag, but don’t lump together an entire group of people because that is just more hate and oppression.

Lol: it’s been a couple years since I wrote this and it sounds so funny, I’ve learned so much! At that point in my life I had no idea what a TERF was and now I realize how dumb it was of me to even engage this person.

Hair 2

I decided.  

 

hair?

So I’m thinking about getting a hair cut,but a can’t decide if I want to do my norm add layers and keep length or cut my bangs to cover my brow bone. This is what it looks like now: 

 Me

I really love Andreja Pejic’s look but she’s been on antiandrogens since she was a teen. 

 Andreja

So she doesn’t really have to worry about a prominent brow. This is the look I’ve been working for so it’s hard for me to part with. I also like Isley Ruest’s look. She didn’t start transition as young as Andreja but looks just as buetiful.

  Isley

I don’t know what I want. What do y’all think?

Spiro

 Waiting in the doctors office hopefully I’ll start Spiro today! 🙂